The main reason you find, is that you refused to be found.
you find, because you refused to wait.
you said time is so short to wait like a fool, so you find..
After you found what you've been desperately finding, you forget.
you forget things you should remember, and you forget how to remember.
because the joy did made you immersed, drowned hopelessly to the false hope and deceit he gave you.
Little did you know, the said he is one of your stepping stone to reach the 'one'.
or more like an obstacle, that makes your supposed-to-be-smooth road becomes bumpy, rough.
Hurt, defined by you as your ability to count your shattered heart.
Hurt, in terms of me is my weakness of not blocking you from indulging your own false world.
because you destined to be with the one in your future which was decided by the almighty Allah.
instead, you refused his ability and credibility to direct and write your very own journey.
and then you ask, "why? why am i the only one 'happiness' refused to acknowledge?"
here's the answer;
you're too busy writing the script, 'till you become too ignorant to understand time.
thus, ended up your story having the crappiest plot ever.
yours faithfully and truthfully can't bear watching you in sorrows,